I feel very exposed, but I also feel the need to post about what is really going on with me these days.
I have postpartum depression (PPD). I started to consider the possibility that I had it a little over a week ago when someone made a comment about depression in church. I realized that what she was describing was exactly how I felt. Then I called a friend of mine who had gone through PPD before. She had talked about it on her blog (to see her post, click here). At her suggestion, I called my midwife and went in for an appointment.
I don't feel like I'm going to hurt my child.
I don't feel like I can't get out of bed in the morning.
I don't cry all day long.
But sometimes I do cry.
And other times I am just numb.
Sometimes I laugh, but not as much as I used to.
And there are often times when I get very overwhelmed.
I know it'll get better, but at the moment...
I just wanted you to know.